On Tuesday, November 6, 2012, I had in one day’s time received two very bad news messages, first, after I had gone to the local voting place to vote and having come home, received a telephone call telling me that my only and older brother, Ronald E. Volowski, aged 64, was found dead in his bed, having died in his sleep despite efforts to saved him via emergency medical first responders efforts.
What happened on that day, was BOTH the death not only of a very dear brother, but also the death of a major super power. I could not believe both my ears and eyes when it was announced that President Obama won re-election. It looks more like a combination of not only the promise of “freebies,” with “changing demographics,” but also it is possible that there was massive “voter fraud“ as well. Frankly, it would not surprise me if it is ALL OF THE ABOVE that lead to the re-election of President Obama.
What I am seeing is a nation that is dying before my very eyes.
What I have gone through these last few months, dealing with my own health issues, an aging mother, and the death first of the man I have loved for 21 years, David Anthony Muszynski on September 10, 2012, and now my older brother Ronald Edward Volowski, on November 6, 2012, having died in his sleep, I am now dealing with two personal heart breaks.
Add to that, I am now losing the nation I love, the United States of America.
The one lesson I have learned now is that I am going to focus more on both my spirituality and Christian/Roman Catholic faith. I am NOW DONE with political parties, and will focus more on not only the above, but on current events and other articles in regards to this blog and my daily life.
The larger focus will be on my pilgrimage to my real home, which is HEAVEN.
Ronald, with LOVE, I will miss you. RIP Ronald.
United States of America, it was GOOD while it lasted. RIP United States of America.
Right now, I am keeping a “very careful eye” on the coming northeastern storm, Sandy. Having just gotten home yesterday from a very wonderful Christian/Catholic women’s retreat weekend, towards its end, was warned to prepare. Had been able to do that, despite being tired from this wonderful weekend of a new spiritual beginning which was needed after four difficult and heartbreaking months of ill-health, my mother Edna’s advancing age and ill-health as well as both the sudden illness and death of the man I love, David.
For those who read this article, PLEASE keep me in your prayers that I and my cats get through this storm. PLEASE also pray for those who are in the thick of it right now in the affected areas, be they humans or animals. For those who are in the thick of it, stay safe and get your prepping efforts DONE NOW. May God Bless and keep everyone, including this blogger and her cats SAFE.AMEN.
While taking the time this weekend to do the much-needed rest and reflection, I have been thinking about all the very best memories that I have had with the man I have spent twenty-one wonderful years of relationship. Going over a list is not easy, and it could take many hours just to figure it all out. Instead, I am doing what a famous late night tv host, another David, David Letterman does on his show, he does a top 10 list. It is one which begins at number #10 and goes through to number #1.
The last two months that David and I were together, because of the life-threatening illness in late July that I had, celluitis, with the three dead wisdom teeth on top of it, which were all removed with the draining of the area of bacterial infection as well as time spent at Manchester Memorial Hospital in Manchester CT, United States of America had fully brought both David and I into an even closer, loving, forever relationship with each other. When in September David had taken sick very suddenly with pulmonary blot clots and was rushed to Hartford Hospital, in Hartford, CT, United States of America, it was then my turn to go up to Hartford Hospital to give him the needed time for comfort and support the day after he was brought in to the ER. David was in the ICU unit being treated and when I came to visit him, and having greeted him, David’s eyes lighted up with great happiness and a smile. I was able to talk to David and with his parents, Bob and Pat, David was so very happy to see all three of us. When he was transferred to the tenth floor at Hartford Hospital, I told David I would make an effort to see him either the next day, Friday, or Saturday. During that weekend, I began to take sick myself again and I was told I looked yellow jaundice and with it the symptoms associated with it. Plus the weather was uncertain in regards to possible bad weather. I made a commitment to see David on either Monday, what would be his last day at the hospital or on Tuesday when he would be home. It sadly would never happen. On Monday, I was told by his sister, Dawn and BIL John, the very bad news that David had been called to come home by God, a MUCH BETTER HOME, called HEAVEN. After twenty-one years of a wonderful, loving, forever, joyful relationship with David, my brother in the Lord, my very best friend, and beloved, David now is living life eternal, praising forever the Good Shepard Jesus and with Jesus helping to prepare a home for I also when my time comes for God to call me home. David went very fast and without any suffering, after a blood clot went to his heart.
Do I miss, YES, I still do, and my heart breaks, even now, I still have my period of time when I will break down and cry. But now I am going to do my top ten list of the best memories that I have of David.
Here Is My Top Ten Memories Of My Beloved David:
10. Enjoying David taking me out to eat. Be it Golden Pizza in East Hartford, CT, United States of America or David ordering pizza to go to either his house or my house from Dominos Pizza, or going to Red Lobster, to the United China/Ginger Restraunt, or to the very last restraunt we would go together, the Texas Road House, David knew how to pamper me in this way. Though we called each other Prince and Princess, David, like a king figure treated me like a queen. Plus David was wonderful in his tipping.
9. David and I enjoying the end-of-the year holidays, from Thanksgiving weekend to New Year‘s eve date/gathering. On Christmas Day, he would come down to my place, and sometimes, I would go to his family home for Christmas also. We would exchange gifts, cards, not only with each other but from his family as well. The last New Year’s Eve get-together at his family’s home, David and I watched movies and then came together with his family. We both kissed and welcome in the year 2012. My mother at Christmas 2011 made a traditional quiche which he said was the best one ever made. It would be his last Christmas with me.
8. Watching movies together, be it at local movie theaters or at either his house or my house.
7. David’s sweet, warm, loving smile and the smile that came from his eyes. David and I gave each other so much JOY. Plus the big bear hugs and romantic kisses he would give to me.
6. Enjoy good music together and David introducing me to iTunes.
5. When last year, at the end of summer with both Irene and then late in October with the freak snow storm, David and by extension his family welcoming me to David/his parent’s home when it had power while my home, shared with my mother did not. David and his parents would welcome not only I, but also his sister Dawn and John’s family. Add that, having his brother Johnathan, and animal pet companions Catmus the cat and Curley the guena pig. At least I was able to spend time at David’s house and warmed up.
4. David helping my mother and I get our air conditioners at my home up in June and taken down by the end of September. This I will miss a lot.
3. Going to the Berean Bible conference in Grove City, PA, United States of America. Also helping me take care of my cats when I did the women’s retreats at Holy Family Retreat House in West Hartford, CT, United States of America and Our Lady of Calvary Retreat House in Farmington, CT, United States of America. Plus when he wrote a special letter when I had attended the women’s ACTS Retreat. I still have the letter from David that he wrote to me.
2. Going to Orlando, FL, United States of America to go to both Walt Disney World and Universal Studios FL to visit both theme parks. David and I had such fun, including a few of the water based rides that got us both wet and cooled off. David not only kept me young at heart, he also taught me to not be afraid to accept my learning challenges, being in special ed, just like David was. He was a wonderful teacher. He also got into the tech stuff and he was also helpful, with his brother Andrew.
And last, but not least,
1. David by his faith, hope, and love in the most Holy Trinity and in Jesus, David pointed me in the right direction to the one who is both “the Good Shepard” (Psalm 23:1) and my “light and salvation” (Psalm 27:1), JESUS.
David, while I still miss you and still feel sorrow for your passing on, I look forward to the day when I am, safe at home with the most Holy Trinity and with Jesus, you will also David WELCOME ME HOME WITH OPEN ARMS OF LOVE.
David, I LOVE YOU FOREVER, NOW AND IN THE NEXT LIFE. God, give eternal rest to David. Amen.
This morning, as I got ready to go to the “Sound Off Connecticut With Jim Vicevich” blog site with its chatroom, it came to my mine that David became a fan of Jim Vicevich and his talk radio show. Also when I went to David and his family’s house mid to late morning to get unto his laptop computer, I would go right away into the SOC Chatroom. I remember when Radioviceonline had the old Chatroll setup, David seeing how I did it, decided to join in the chatroom “talk” and he created his own nickname by the name of Davey or Davee with Christmas or another connecting name. He would even come to either remind me about getting for Bible study and that all-important time together as a couple. One time when the Chatroll chatroom was having “tech issues”, I became all worked up and guess what, David was in the chatroom and he told me to CALM DOWN via a special private message he had sent me over at Facebook and not get “all worked up” on a trivial tech issue. ENJOY this extra read. :)=^..^=
UPDATE PART 2:
September 21, 2012:
David, Anne-Marie. God had given to me a wonderful and warm day to go see you at Hillside Cemetary yesterday. The visit to see you has helped to give me comfort and peace which is a gift from God, though my heart still aches because I still miss you. I LOVE YOU DAVID. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs And Kisses))))))))))))))))))))))))))
The above words come from American country and western singer, Blake Shelton, who is also one of the judges of NBC Tv network show, “The Voice“. This sound I first heard last night when I was listening to online on via iTunesWDSY FM in Pittsburgh, PA, United States of America local country and western station last night, hours after being told of the sad and sudden passing from a heart attack, the prior day before, Monday, September 10, 2012, the day before he was most likely was going to go home from Hartford Hospital after having been a patient for close to a week from dealing with blood clots that was threatening to go to his lungs; my very dear and beloved boyfriend David Anthony Muszynski. He was forty-six-years-young at the time. The title of the song is:
The song touched me so much that it brought tears to my eyes. It speaks of with gratitude of special relationships. In a very special way, it had spoken of the loving relationship I had with David for twenty-one years. He was the man who was with me and I with him through all the good and bad times. Even when I was sick and a patient over at Manchester Memorial Hospital, with the life-threatening illness of face celluitis of the lower left jaw and having three lower left wisdom teeth removed this summer which has just has passed.
That experience brought both David and I even much more closer together. Before he took sick in a sudden way, we had both talked about our future as a couple and of looking to live in a possible way in NC, United States of America. I told him that besides with prayer and reflection, plus with e-mailing and talking about it, we will come to a decision and also I had told him that I will go with you whatever the decision. Now I am dealing with being alone, without him, sick with yellow jaundice, having possible problems with my liver area, and scared for my own life and health again, as well as grieving for losing David to death.
This is the time I must begin to have confidence in God and in that, He has taken David home and David is waiting for me when one day my time will come.
THANK-YOU Blake Shelton for this wonderful and special musical gift, which I NEEDED SO VERY MUCH at this time.
David, I know you will always be with me FOREVER in my heart. When I see beautiful red roses I will always remember you, as well as the rainbows after the rain as a special reminders your are forever with me David. I LOVE YOU DAVID FOREVER. RIP.
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Last night while I was watching the NBC music talent show, ” The Voice“, I saw what looked like a breaking news annoucment saying that singer Whitney Houston was found dead at the age of 48 in her hotel room in Beverly Hills, CA, USA. How ironic in all of this is while I was watching a tv show about finding new music talent, a very talented music voice from my days as a young adult, Whitney Houston passed away suddenly. What also was very ironic is that now, as an aging member from the baby boom generation, this was like a punch in my stomach.
Also Ms. Whitney’s death comes at a time in my own life when I am confronting the reality that now that I am in the second-half of my life, my own body is also starting to do its own breakdown in the breakdown lane of this life. First my right knee with ostroarthritis, then a tooth going bad with abscess, forcing me to go to the University of Connecticut Medical Center in Farmington for emergency dental treatment. Late last October, after seeing a spot in my right breast area during a regular yearly mamagram and ultrasound having a hard time picking up what that spot is, I am as on February 27 will be undergoing a breast biospy procedure. I PRAY that it does not end up having me being told I have breast cancer. Just being able to talk about my own health issues was never all that easy, let alone blogging about the health problems of the rich and famous. Being one that tries to have my own self-respect
Having said all of this, I now get back with dealing with the death of Whitney Houston.
Early this morning, which is a Sunday, I do not blog at all, and I try since this is the Lord’s day, to avoid blogging as much as possible. Today with the sad passing of Ms. Houston, this was the exception. Even then, I was still very much surprised by Ms. Whitney’s passing. I have been hearing that she has been fighting drug addiction for a number of years, coming out to admit in 2003 to Oprah that she was smoking crack cocaine. From the UKDaily Mail Online website: “She cancelled a string of concerts and talk shows as she struggled to cope. In a chat show with Oprah in 2003, the star admitted the scale of her addiction to smoking crack cocaine.”It was every day, every,’ she said. ‘I didn’t think about the singing part of it any more.” Even reading in the Daily Mail UK online website was a BIG EYE OPENER for me to the extent of the addiction that Ms. Houston had been dealing with. Truly I will never in full come to the full understanding of what she was dealing with. But what Ms. Houston was dealing with, the down side of what comes with being both rich and famous is an ongoing lesson that both wealth and fame are always, always fleeting.
While Ms. Whitney’s music will live on in my mind and in the minds of her fans and music listeners alike, my two favorite songs being her wonderful singing of the United States of America‘s national anthem, “The Star Spangle Banner“ before the start of the 1991 NFL pro football Super Bowl and the song from the movie and soundtrack, “The Bodyguard““I Will Always Love You.” Truly those two songs will burn in my memory. Tonight I will be watch “The Grammy Awards” and check in to see the musical tribute to Ms. Houston. Today I had aged a bit more in my middle-age.
The sad reality of it all is, Ms. Houston died TOO SOON.
Thank-you Ms. Houston for the memories in your music. RIP Ms. Houston.
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“Whitney Houston – Super Bowl XXV (1991) – The National Anthem of the United States of America
On February 11, 2012, Whitney Houston was found dead at the Beverly Hilton Hotel, in Beverly Hills, California, of causes not immediately known.
Whitney Elizabeth Houston (August 9, 1963 — February 11, 2012) was an American singer, actress, producer, and model. Houston was the most awarded female act of all time, according to Guinness World Records. Her list of awards includes 2 Emmy Awards, 6 Grammy Awards, 30 Billboard Music Awards, 22 American Music Awards, among a total of 415 career awards as of 2010. Houston was also one of the world’s best-selling music artists, having sold over 170 million albums, singles and videos worldwide.
Inspired by several prominent soul singers in her family, including mother Cissy Houston and cousins Dionne Warwick and the late Dee Dee Warwick, as well as her godmother, Aretha Franklin, Houston began singing with New Jersey church’s junior gospel choir at age 11. After she began performing alongside her mother in night clubs in the New York City area, she was discovered by Arista Records label head Clive Davis. As of 2011, Houston had released seven studio albums and three movie soundtrack albums, all of which have diamond, multi-platinum, platinum, or gold certification.
Houston was the only artist to chart seven consecutive No. 1 Billboard Hot 100 hits (“Saving All My Love for You”, “How Will I Know”, “Greatest Love of All”, “I Wanna Dance with Somebody (Who Loves Me)”, “Didn’t We Almost Have It All”, “So Emotional”, and “Where Do Broken Hearts Go”). She was the second artist behind Elton John and the only female artist to have two number-one Top Billboard 200 Album awards (formerly “Top Pop Album”) on the Billboard magazine year-end charts. Houston’s 1985 debut album, Whitney Houston, became the best-selling debut album by a female act at the time of its release. The album was also named Rolling Stone’s best album of 1986, and was ranked at number 254 on Rolling Stone’s list of the 500 Greatest Albums of All Time. Her second studio album, Whitney (1987), became the first album by a female artist to debut at number one on the Billboard 200 albums chart. Houston’s crossover appeal on the popular music charts as well as her prominence on MTV, starting with her video for “How Will I Know”, influenced several African-American female artists to follow in her footsteps.
Houston’s first acting role was as the star of the feature film The Bodyguard (1992). The movie’s original soundtrack won the 1994 Grammy Award for Album of the Year. Its lead single, “I Will Always Love You”, became the best-selling single by a female artist in music history. With this album, Houston became the first act (solo or group, male or female) to sell more than a million copies of an album within a single week period. The album also makes her the only female act in the top 10 list of the best-selling albums of all time, at number four. Houston continued to star in movies and contribute to their adjoining soundtracks, including the films Waiting to Exhale (1995) and The Preacher’s Wife (1996). The Preacher’s Wife soundtrack would go on to become the best-selling gospel album in history. Three years after the release of her fourth studio album, My Love Is Your Love (1998), she renewed her recording contract with Arista Records. She released her fifth studio album, Just Whitney, in 2002, and the Christmas-themed One Wish: The Holiday Album in 2003. Amid widespread media coverage of personal and professional turmoil, Houston ended her 14-year marriage to singer Bobby Brown in 2006. In 2009, Houston released her seventh studio album, I Look to You.”
“Whitney Houston I will always love youWhitney Houston takes Dolly Parton’s song and makes it completely her own in this amazing cover.Lyricsf IShould stayI would only be in your waySo I’ll goBut I knowI’ll think of you every step ofthe wayAnd I…Will alwaysLove you, oohhWill alwaysLove youYouMy darling youMmm-mmBittersweetMemoriesThat is all I’m taking with meSo good-byePlease don’t cryWe both know I’m not what youYou needAnd I…Will always love youI…Will always love youYou, ooh[Instrumental / Sax solo]I hopelife treats you kindAnd I hopeyou have all you’ve dreamed ofAnd I wish you joyand happinessBut above all thisI wish you loveAnd I…Will always love youI…Will always love you[Repeat]I, I will always loveYou….YouDarling I love youI’ll alwaysI’ll alwaysLoveYou..OoohOoohhh_______________________________Whitney Houston sings I Will Always Love You in this amazing cover for the movie The Bodyguard with Kevin Costner. It was Kevin Costner himself who discovered this song for “the” song of the movie.I Will Always Love You Whitney Houston I Will Always Love You Whitney Houston Video The Bodyguard”