On the last Sunday of Advent, a few short days before Christmas, like everyone else who is very busy at this time of year as well as suffering from osteoarthritis in both my knees as was drawn to the third Advent candle, the pink one which was still producing left over smoke from the previous Sunday morning mass at 8 AM. It did concerned me for a while, but it got me to think, that God was speaking to me, in that in all the last year and a half that I had so many hurts and heartaches which produced a great feeling of being alone in my soul. For this, it caused me to do a lot of crying the last few days off and on. Today, on Christmas Eve Day, 2013, I realized that the God who created the universe and this earth, with all the creatures in it, humans and animals, who created the seasons, was with me all the time.
The same God who created the universe, this earth, humans, and animals, became a simple, little newborn baby born in time. Christmas is not just the Blessed Virgin Mary saying “yes” to God to become His mother in this world, but also a great feast of God the Father, of whom I have started to call Him, “Daddy God” as of late. Christmas also honors St. Joseph who accepted the call by God to not only marry Mary as her husband as well as protector, but to raise God the Son, as a shinning example of what a human father can be, even as an adoptive father, being loving and supportive.
Christmas is also God the Father sending His Son, the great Divine Mercy, on a mission of great mercy to a sin darkened world that needed redemption. Today, sadly, this same world needs the light that comes from the great Divine Mercy of God in 2013, just as it did on that first Christmas Eve/Day over 2,000 years ago.
A couple of years back, Johnson & Johnson produced a number of tv ads about “having a baby changes everything.” Well ONE SPECIAL BABY’Sbirth in the city of David in the holy land many years ago changed not only everything, but changed the world as we know of now. Because of the birth of Jesus, the world never was the same again. While that first Christmas was a difficult one for Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, it was all that took place at that first Christmas that those who have faith in the Lord can rejoice, even in the midst of pain and sorrow.
Thank-you Heavenly Father for sending in Your great LOVEYour only begotten Son, in this mission of great mercy.
Thank-you Jesus for being born for us, born into time, to “make all things new.” Thank-you Mary for saying “yes” to God’s call to become His mother. Thank-you Joseph for showing what a man of courage can be.
A good and blessed Merry Christmas to all!
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Christmas Day 2012, for I, after dealing the personal health issues, the heartbreak dealing with the deaths of two men I love very dearly, David my significant other of 21 years and my older only brother Ronald, as well as an aging and ill mother the one message I offer this Christmas 2012 is very clear that relationships with both God and others is very important.
Christmas is not how much you spent on the very best gifts, it is having the very best in relationships. Also in light of what has happened in Newton, Connecticut, United States of America, with the horrible shooting incident over at the Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newton, CT, which killed 20 children and 7 adults, life could very well end all of a sudden. It is such that makes this blog entry so very important..
I close with a prayer poem by Robert Louis Stevenson:
While taking the time this weekend to do the much-needed rest and reflection, I have been thinking about all the very best memories that I have had with the man I have spent twenty-one wonderful years of relationship. Going over a list is not easy, and it could take many hours just to figure it all out. Instead, I am doing what a famous late night tv host, another David, David Letterman does on his show, he does a top 10 list. It is one which begins at number #10 and goes through to number #1.
The last two months that David and I were together, because of the life-threatening illness in late July that I had, celluitis, with the three dead wisdom teeth on top of it, which were all removed with the draining of the area of bacterial infection as well as time spent at Manchester Memorial Hospital in Manchester CT, United States of America had fully brought both David and I into an even closer, loving, forever relationship with each other. When in September David had taken sick very suddenly with pulmonary blot clots and was rushed to Hartford Hospital, in Hartford, CT, United States of America, it was then my turn to go up to Hartford Hospital to give him the needed time for comfort and support the day after he was brought in to the ER. David was in the ICU unit being treated and when I came to visit him, and having greeted him, David’s eyes lighted up with great happiness and a smile. I was able to talk to David and with his parents, Bob and Pat, David was so very happy to see all three of us. When he was transferred to the tenth floor at Hartford Hospital, I told David I would make an effort to see him either the next day, Friday, or Saturday. During that weekend, I began to take sick myself again and I was told I looked yellow jaundice and with it the symptoms associated with it. Plus the weather was uncertain in regards to possible bad weather. I made a commitment to see David on either Monday, what would be his last day at the hospital or on Tuesday when he would be home. It sadly would never happen. On Monday, I was told by his sister, Dawn and BIL John, the very bad news that David had been called to come home by God, a MUCH BETTER HOME, called HEAVEN. After twenty-one years of a wonderful, loving, forever, joyful relationship with David, my brother in the Lord, my very best friend, and beloved, David now is living life eternal, praising forever the Good Shepard Jesus and with Jesus helping to prepare a home for I also when my time comes for God to call me home. David went very fast and without any suffering, after a blood clot went to his heart.
Do I miss, YES, I still do, and my heart breaks, even now, I still have my period of time when I will break down and cry. But now I am going to do my top ten list of the best memories that I have of David.
Here Is My Top Ten Memories Of My Beloved David:
10. Enjoying David taking me out to eat. Be it Golden Pizza in East Hartford, CT, United States of America or David ordering pizza to go to either his house or my house from Dominos Pizza, or going to Red Lobster, to the United China/Ginger Restraunt, or to the very last restraunt we would go together, the Texas Road House, David knew how to pamper me in this way. Though we called each other Prince and Princess, David, like a king figure treated me like a queen. Plus David was wonderful in his tipping.
9. David and I enjoying the end-of-the year holidays, from Thanksgiving weekend to New Year‘s eve date/gathering. On Christmas Day, he would come down to my place, and sometimes, I would go to his family home for Christmas also. We would exchange gifts, cards, not only with each other but from his family as well. The last New Year’s Eve get-together at his family’s home, David and I watched movies and then came together with his family. We both kissed and welcome in the year 2012. My mother at Christmas 2011 made a traditional quiche which he said was the best one ever made. It would be his last Christmas with me.
8. Watching movies together, be it at local movie theaters or at either his house or my house.
7. David’s sweet, warm, loving smile and the smile that came from his eyes. David and I gave each other so much JOY. Plus the big bear hugs and romantic kisses he would give to me.
6. Enjoy good music together and David introducing me to iTunes.
5. When last year, at the end of summer with both Irene and then late in October with the freak snow storm, David and by extension his family welcoming me to David/his parent’s home when it had power while my home, shared with my mother did not. David and his parents would welcome not only I, but also his sister Dawn and John’s family. Add that, having his brother Johnathan, and animal pet companions Catmus the cat and Curley the guena pig. At least I was able to spend time at David’s house and warmed up.
4. David helping my mother and I get our air conditioners at my home up in June and taken down by the end of September. This I will miss a lot.
3. Going to the Berean Bible conference in Grove City, PA, United States of America. Also helping me take care of my cats when I did the women’s retreats at Holy Family Retreat House in West Hartford, CT, United States of America and Our Lady of Calvary Retreat House in Farmington, CT, United States of America. Plus when he wrote a special letter when I had attended the women’s ACTS Retreat. I still have the letter from David that he wrote to me.
2. Going to Orlando, FL, United States of America to go to both Walt Disney World and Universal Studios FL to visit both theme parks. David and I had such fun, including a few of the water based rides that got us both wet and cooled off. David not only kept me young at heart, he also taught me to not be afraid to accept my learning challenges, being in special ed, just like David was. He was a wonderful teacher. He also got into the tech stuff and he was also helpful, with his brother Andrew.
And last, but not least,
1. David by his faith, hope, and love in the most Holy Trinity and in Jesus, David pointed me in the right direction to the one who is both “the Good Shepard” (Psalm 23:1) and my “light and salvation” (Psalm 27:1), JESUS.
David, while I still miss you and still feel sorrow for your passing on, I look forward to the day when I am, safe at home with the most Holy Trinity and with Jesus, you will also David WELCOME ME HOME WITH OPEN ARMS OF LOVE.
David, I LOVE YOU FOREVER, NOW AND IN THE NEXT LIFE. God, give eternal rest to David. Amen.
This morning, as I got ready to go to the “Sound Off Connecticut With Jim Vicevich” blog site with its chatroom, it came to my mine that David became a fan of Jim Vicevich and his talk radio show. Also when I went to David and his family’s house mid to late morning to get unto his laptop computer, I would go right away into the SOC Chatroom. I remember when Radioviceonline had the old Chatroll setup, David seeing how I did it, decided to join in the chatroom “talk” and he created his own nickname by the name of Davey or Davee with Christmas or another connecting name. He would even come to either remind me about getting for Bible study and that all-important time together as a couple. One time when the Chatroll chatroom was having “tech issues”, I became all worked up and guess what, David was in the chatroom and he told me to CALM DOWN via a special private message he had sent me over at Facebook and not get “all worked up” on a trivial tech issue. ENJOY this extra read. :)=^..^=
UPDATE PART 2:
September 21, 2012:
David, Anne-Marie. God had given to me a wonderful and warm day to go see you at Hillside Cemetary yesterday. The visit to see you has helped to give me comfort and peace which is a gift from God, though my heart still aches because I still miss you. I LOVE YOU DAVID. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs And Kisses))))))))))))))))))))))))))